So, here it is, her response, two weeks later......

I enjoyed going to dinner and a movie with you. I would also be open to doing this again sometime, but just as friends. To be honest, I just did not feel a connection with you on that level. Maybe it is the age difference but I just felt we were too different from each other.

I hope you will still come to the Game Night this Saturday. It should be a lot of fun and if all who RSVP'd show up there will be several women there that you have not met before. (you'd think she was trying to pimp me or something)

Oh well, my life goes on.

This is just a quick note to you guys. I'm off to clean house (since my mom's bf is coming over, then I have a few errands to run for myself when my mom gets back with her car. But, first, laundry. It;s like the shit keeps breeding or something. Sunday my basket was empty, now, it's overflowing again. When will it ever end?!?!?!?!?!

And, I'm off.........................

Well, I'm checking in after watching Kerry's speech.
 
It was the most vaguely specific speech I've heard yet. The references to gay rights were uber vague. I watched it on Ch. 11, they tend to have the most liberal coverage, and, the most intelligent commentators.
 
I agreed with them when they said that the speech could have been made for and read by either major party. Except I'd have a hard time believing that Bush would endorse government funds for stem cell research. Or realizing that he was writing bigotry into our Constitution.
 
"Help is on the way"
and
"Stronger at Home and Respected Abroad"
 
Kerry has a point about that. Bush has successfully alienated enough allies that it may take two Presidents to get the trust of the global community back. It is what we need if we are to defeat terrorists, or, at least be able to stop them in the first place.
 
And about equal marriage, he simply stated that Bush has divided our nation (duh), that he should not be writing bigotry into our Constitution (no shit), and that we are "One America" (sure rich white boy).
 
There was an "education rally" outside of Sidetracks today by the EMN! The point was to educate the people going in for the Kerry benefit about his stance on same-sex marriage. He doesn't support any amendments to the Constitution banning it, but, advocates an amendment in his home state banning them indefinitely, dissolving the ones that have happened, and, not recognizing ones done in other states or Canada. Considering that Massachusetts is the only state that gays have access to equal marriage, it kinda makes the guy a hypocrite. I'm sure that Bush will be all over that like flies on fresh shit.
 
I didn't go to help out simply because I couldn't bring myself to want to go. I can't knock the guy who is the only real chance to make the bigots lose their power, and, who won't sign any anti-gay legislation into law, and, is open about it. It would have felt like I was shooting him in the foot.

I honestly believe that all of our energy should go towards ensuring that Kerry gets in the big house in November. Now is not the time for us to be separate and divisive. Now is not the time for us to be getting riled up about personal stances, but, public ones. I believe that every day we stand divided is one more day that the Republicans have won over us. The Republican party has anticipated division on all levels, and, in all groups. If there are people out there who think that this dissent is of their choice, they are sadly mistaken; we are stupidly playing into their grand plan to win the big house again in winter.
 
We must stand together as one to defeat this hateful, spiteful monster who holds the title of President. This is a leader who has sworn to defend and protect the Constitution, and, instead is trying to taint and destroy it with hate. This is a leader that believes that having the title of "Commander in Chief" allows him to use and abuse our young boys and girls to his whim. He believes that he can lie to American people and kill our next generation so that he can maintain office. This is a leader who is so focused on trying to keep his job, he isn't doing his job.

Leaders are supposed to lead their people to fight the good fight. Leaders are supposed to create and maintain unity, to be the moral compass of the nation that has charged them. Leaders are supposed to ensure that their nation and it's citizens are treated equally, and, given opportunities to succeed, excel and to be role models for the next generation, in their country and in others. Leaders are supposed to understand that they are part of a global community, that they are held accountable by all of their counterparts, from countries big and small. Leaders understand that they are citizens of the world around them, not just for the nation they are charged with honoring with their service. Leaders understand that they must maintain traditions of old (such as the honoring of treaties past), along with using that as a base to create new traditions and rights. Leaders understand that they must protect the minority as well as the majority, being the moral compass of their people.
 
Does this sound like Bush to you?
 
Not to me.
 
The following sounds better, don't you think?
 
Leaders do not deny citizens their rights because they appointed people who could not and did not do their job.
Leaders do not intentionally divide their nation to keep their job.
Leaders do not lie to their people.
Leaders do not let their beliefs interfere with their duties.
Leaders do not listen to money, but to humans.
Leaders do not break oaths or dishonor treaties.
Leaders do not reward those who steal from the people.
Leaders do not let the guilty be treated as royalty.
Leaders do not send their men and women off to die for "causes", but "purposes" and "rights".
Leaders do not just listen to the words of hate, but, the words of love as well.
Leaders do not make choices that are in the best interest of their "approval ratings".
Leaders understand that 10% of the population is still 10%, no matter how much money they have.
 
I hope that you are getting the point here.
 
To close, here's a little email I got this afternoon;
 
Psychologists Group Backs Gay Marriage
 
HONOLULU - The nation's largest association of psychologists is backing same-sex marriage. The American Psychological Association's Council of Representatives made its support official Wednesday, the first day of the group's annual convention in Waikiki. The council also expressed opposition to discrimination against lesbian and gay parents. It also found same-sex and heterosexual couples remarkably similar, and parenting effectiveness and children's psychological well-being unrelated to parental sexual orientation. The positions, drawn up by the APA Working Group on Same-Sex Families and Relationships, are meant to guide psychologists in the public debate over civil marriage for same-sex couples. "In the context of the huge social and political debate that is currently going on, APA and psychologists had to grapple with the issue of what psychology believes is in the public interest in this controversy," said Armand R. Cerbone, a Chicago psychologist who chaired the working group. The seven-member working group based its recommendations on research into same-sex relationships and families. The Washington-base APA has more than 150,000 members, including researchers, educators, clinicians, consultants and students. On the Net: American Psychological Association: http://www.apa.org

BAM!!!!!

The V.I.P. edition of Showgirls came out on DVD today.
 
VIP edition?
 
WTF???
 
Here's the list;
shot glasses
lobby cards
showgirl's game
blindfold
playing cards
lap dance tutorial
~and~
pasties
 
They're not pasties; they're titty tassles. Call them what they are, titty tassles!!!!
 
Yeah, and, I'm sure people will use them for the "game" included in the set. Right, and I'm straight.
 
Every guy at my job laughed their asses off when my manager read the list this morning. Some turned red, turned turned their heads away from the group so as to not offend the women who were there, but, they all laughed.....along with me and the other women.
 

 
 
 
 
 

In my sidebar for a while you will see a link to the ACLU campaign against the Matrix.
 
No, it's not the movie, but, far worse. If this is allowed to take full shape, everything about you, including your private life (relationships, family plans, health records, etc) will be easily accessed by anyone who is connected to it.
 
Hey, I buy some kinky shit with my credit cards, and, quite honestly, I don't want you or anybody else to know what that shit is. I also don't want to give away the secret to my sudden loss of 30+ pounds.
 
Just because I've told you I'm gay doesn't mean I want you to bring your friends over to my job and point at me like I'm some freak show. I'll pass, thanks.

Oh, and uh, guys, don't ever go commando at the gym; somebody's gonna see and make fun of your ass!

Well, here I am, again.
 
I've switched from MSN to EarthLink. Despite the fact that EarthLink has four numbers for me to dial as opposed to 2 that MSN gave me, EartLink is a little slow on the online notification.
 
It usually takes about a minute for EarthLink to load up, while MSN took less than 20 seconds (usually).
 
Eh, I'm spending half the money I used to anyway.
 
So, I'm sitting here at home, and, I'm finding myself pacing the apartment. I do this and I don't know why. My therapist thinks I suffer from some sort of "mild anxiety" (her words), and, that could be the cause of my restlessness.

What the hell is "mild anxiety"?

Let's elaborate, shall we?

Anxiety   

Psychiatry. A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.

Mild    

Gentle or kind in disposition, manners, or behavior.

Moderate in type, degree, effect, or force: a mild pipe tobacco; a mild sedative. 

Not severe or acute: a mild fever. 

 
Hmmm, mild anxiety...kinda sounds like mild herpes.....
 
You either HAVE IT or YOU DON'T.

 

(definitions courtesy of dictionary.com)

Yeah, is that why I work retail? All I do is go up to total strangers and say "Hi, is there an artist/movie title you are looking for?" or "Can I help you find a particular (CD or DVD)?"

How is this anxiety?

My brain hurts from thinking about this, I'm gonna stop now. Anyway, it looks like my friend D got back from her trip ok, but, she's not giving me details, which could mean that it went really well (what does that mean? get a clue!), or, she ended up having a really bad time. I'll find out soon enough.

My hair is growing out well. I have to drag my ass out and get the back cut on Friday (when I get paid), along with a trim around the ears and getting it evened out all around.

I've been fretting about what to take to M's game night until I looked in the frig and went "Duh, queen jackass". Turns out I have 2 packages of italian sausages in the freezer that I can take, or, I can always opt out and get some brats. Mmmm, brats (drool).

The Jewel near my house is selling C2 at $2.50 a case. I guess that they are trying to get rid of their stock on that, since the only ones selling are the 20 oz. bottles and the fridge packs, if that. I love C2, and, I will get as many as I can before they go.

I know this was so exciting for you all, but, it's the best that I can do right now. Other than the fact that I've lost a few more pounds. I'm down to 152, which puts me 7 pounds away from my high school weight. Sexy!!!!

 

 

 

Greetings, oh BlogLanders!
 
I'm in a much better mood, thank you. Amazing what 8 hours of sleep can do for you.
Okay, so, today on the agenda is laundry (isn't it always), and, getting my room in order so that it looks decent when the place is shown at around 4 today.
 
I got a call two days ago saying that there might be a buyer for the building, they just want to see our apartment. These were the same people who wanted to see the place a week ago, but, I had plans already, and, my mom was out of town.
 
Well, it looks like Beenie Man has set up tour dates in the U.S. He's already experienced cancelled dates in Europe, particularly in England.
 
Why do I mention Beenie Man?
 
Because he advocates (not just supports or condones) the killing of gays and lesbians. Recently, a prominent Jamaican gay rights activist was killed, along with his partner, while they were sleeping. It was a particularly gruesome murder, the scene was described as blood having been splashed everywhere and the bodies were hit with such force that there were "body parts that were barely attached".
 
Beenie Man, as the one of the nation's forefront citizens has not condoned, or condemned the attack.
 
His excuse in writing lyrics that support the killing of homosexuals is simply this; such attitudes are accepted in his society, therefore, he can write about them.
 
What a pathetic thought process.
 
EMN is supposed to be holding a protest tonight in Boys Town about the passing of the MPA. The time hasn't been confirmed yet, and, it looks like half of the more active members can't make it because they are either out of town or working. I love having Saturdays off. I do want to go, but I need some kind of confirmation that it's happening.
 
I'm sure I'll have more later.

 

I just had to do this (courtesy of Tiffany)
 
1. Your name spelled backwards. ellebasI
2. Where were your parents born? Mom in Chicago, Dad in Mexico on his parent's ranch
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Remixes of "Time" by Murk
4. What's your favorite restaurant? Lindo Mexico
5. Last time you swam in a pool?  High School
6. Have you ever been in a school play? back in 3rd grade
7. How many kids do you want? 2
8. Types of music you dislike most? Musak and elevator crap
9. Are you registered to vote?  Yes
10. Do you have a car? Not now 
11. Have you ever ridden on a mo-ped?  Nope
12. Ever prank call anybody? Extensively back in high school 
13. Ever get a parking ticket? Plenty. Got six in one shot, too bad I only had to pay for one.
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?  Sky Diving
15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Which one is furthest, Acapulco or Mazatlan?
16. Do you have a garden? No
17. What's the size of your bed?  Full
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Yes
19. Bath or shower, morning or night? Showers in the morning, if needed, again in the afternoon
20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?  I, Robot
21. What's the next movie you want to see?  Fahrenheit 9/11
22. Chips or popcorn? Popcorn
23. Have you ever broken any hearts? Yes
24. Premarital sex? Considering I can't get married, I have it all the time 
25. Are you a good cook? Good, not great 
26. Orange or Apple juice?  Jugo de naranja
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with? Mary
28. Favorite type of drink? Gin and tonic
29. Best thing in the world? tied between tolerance & understanding
30. Have you ever broken a bone? No, that was my brothers' job 
31. Have you ever won a trophy? Yes, poster contest back in the 2nd grade
32. What is your favorite board game? Monopoly
33. What is your dream car? Saab
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?  Yep, Oxiclean
35. Coke or Pepsi? Coke 
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Every f#ckin' day I work
37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Diprolene AF (cream for my eczema) 
38. Who are you going to marry? the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with, when it becomes legal
39. Who would you like to meet? George W. Bush, so I can try to figure out why he's trying to make me a second class citizen
40. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?  None
42. Where would you go for a romantic evening? Romantic is the person you're with, not the place you're in 
43. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 17
44. Last song stuck in your head?That song from the new Alanis M CD 
45. Any pets?  Not right now, I love dogs though
46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? Anything done by Eddie Murphy 
47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do?  Calculus
48. What do you do when you are bored?  I get up off my ass and walk
49. What is one thing would you want someone to appreciate about you? That I am human first, gay second 

Sorry kiddies. I've been offline since Tuesday. I cancelled my msn accounts (both of them) and opted for Earthlink at half the price.
 
I'm pissed off that the MPA passed, 223-194 and even more pissed that the HRC revoked an invite to a reception event they gave to Margaret Cho. The HRC is filled with punk-ass cowards, and, it royally sucks that Kerry told them to uninvite her. The I-don't-want-to-give-gays-the-right-to-marry presidential candidate telling the supposed All-for-gay-rights-and-marriage HRC who to invite and not invite to their events. Royally fuckin' pissed.
 
It doesn't help that I'm on the rag, either. I slept from midnight til 1:30 this afternoon, and, I'm still tired. This is not a good day for me, so, I'l wrap this up.
 
I'm done. Tomorrow is another day, and, I will be in a better mood. I promise.

Sorry about the late update, folks. I've been fighting the flu for the past several days. Actually, I've been fighting it for the past several weeks, it just happened to win on Sunday.
 
Ah, so, what has happened to me over the past several days;
 
Saturday I spent doing laundry (like six loads of it) and just cleaning around the house, since my mom was coming back from vacation on Sunday.
 
Sunday I spent going over the "date" in my head and realizing that I was expecting too much too soon. Unfortunately, I have a pattern of giving it up on the first date, and, assuming attachment from that point on, with the titles of "girlfriend" and "lover" soon spoken on the fourth or fifth dates.
 
If you don't know what "it" is, then just ignore that last sentence.
 
I did sleep in a little late. I got up and took care of some financial stuff, and, ran to the store to buy some medicine, since I realized that my flu had won the battle. I took my meds to work, where I had to work the inventory. Now, for those of you that have never ever worked an inventory in retail, consider yourself very lucky. Very very lucky. I would rather have a tooth pulled than work a retail inventory. But, since my dipshitz sup didn't know what he was doing, he scheduled me to help cover his ass. Too bad I wasn't up for that shit. I ended up leaving at a quarter after 11pm. Turns out people were there until 3am. Ouch.
 
So, I came in this morning to discover that the store looked like shit. Not like, aw shit, they didn't fill endcaps, those fuckers, I mean like a tornado went through the place kinda of shit. It was hard core fucked up. And I was the only person there to fix it. You know, if I'm gonna get fucked like this, I'd at least like a kiss, or even a tap on the shoulder, maybe some lube, something....
 
I started in CDs, and worked my way back to software, then our blank CD area, then our storage area, and, that's as far as I got. ALL DAY. Thank God the reinforcement (only one other guy) came in at 9am. He worked on DVDs, while our 12pm guy took care of the video game area.
 
My legs were already killing me from the running around I had to do the night before, but, after my shift today, I wanted to chop them off and trade them in.
 
I came home and went to sleep. That was at 3:30. I woke up around 6pm when my mom called on my cell.
 
Turns out one of my brothers (the single one) somehow fell down some stairs and broke his collarbone. He lives on the 1st floor, people. How the hell do you do that????? He couldn't even give me an explanation. I think he was drunk. I know where he lives, my dad used to own the building. There are four stairs in the hallway on the side of the building, and, five going through the front. How do you fall down four stairs??????
 
Forget it. I'm wasting valuable brain power trying to figure it out.
 
I have my weird midshift tomorrow, from 3 till 9. Weird. I call it the "followup behind my sup's lazy ass" shift. That's exactly what I do, make sure that the stuff that was supposed to get done during his shift in the morning gets done before I leave. Lucky me.
 
I got to play catch-up with my email, since I haven't been on in two days. Looks like the House is working on the Marriage Protection Act, which would, simply put, strip the Supreme Court of any power of ruling over the Defense of Marriage Act. You can click here if you want a fax sent to your House Rep opposing the MPA. The vote is to happen on Thursday.
 
I just want this to stop. Why are so many people trying to do this? I don't understand the mechanics of hate, and, I guess I never will.

I'm off to send several emails, and, then to bed. Talk to you later.

Well, my date went okay. Maybe I was assuming too much calling it a date.
 
She insisted on picking me up from my house. Clue #1 Okay.....
 
I gave her flowers; all I got was a "Thank you".  Clue #2 Yeah.....
 
In the car, I gave her a list of five restaurants, two of which she knocked out, then she let me choose the place. Clue #3 Uh huh.....
 
As we sat in the movie theater watching I, Robot (which was awesome by the way..GO SEE IT!!!!), there were no attempts to "invade" private space on her part. Clue #4  Now I get it....
 
She just dropped me off at my house, with no attempt to give me a hug. Clue #5
 
Yeah, she'll be a cool friend, but, at this point, I'm not convinced that it will be much more.
 
Let me break it down for you.
 
Clue #1 - This means that she wants to keep control of the date, and, try not to be seen by anybody that she may know. This may mean that she's not out, or, she just might have her eye on somebody else.
 
Clue #2 - Every woman that I have given flowers to (even dates that went really bad) have given me hugs. I did not even get an attempt at one.
 
Clue #3 - I always let my date pick the restaurant, which has always happened until now. After several attempts to get her to choose, I was put in the position of choice.
 
Clue #4 - "Invasion" of personal space means that there is a genuine interest by the other party. She just kept tilting her head towards me if she had a question; I was the one who had to lean in.
 
Clue #5 - Even on bad dates, I get a hug at the end. This one, I got nothin'. Absolutely nothin'. 
 
Is this all making sense now?
 
Like I said, perhaps I was wrong in calling this a date.
 
I'm still going to game night at her house at the end of the month.
 
With no assumptions.
 
 
 
 

Oh, before I forget.
 
I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW NIGHT!!
I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW NIGHT!!
I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW NIGHT!!
I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW NIGHT!!
 
 

What is this?
New selections for me???
The new layout is beautiful....beautiful indeed.
 
Anywho.
 
In the words of the KoolAid guy

OH YEAH!!!!!

So, not only did I get to celebrate a victory against the FMA, I hung out with Equal Marriage NOW! at the corner of Roscoe and Halsted working the corner like a civil rights Hoe!

For the hour and a half the group was there, only 30 people total gathered, but, the response we got was amazing! Every other car that passed honked their horns to support us, while we only had one guy honk his horn and give us a thumbs down.

We yelled and screamed and blew whistles and chanted. We walked down the street to Belmont and back again to Roscoe. We even had news coverage; channels 2, 5, 44 and 66 in Chicago were there shooting footage and taking pictures. If you looked at the whole segment that Channel 2 ran last night, you would have seen me in the background while they were talking to, Mark, I believe.

So, it was all good. As the crowd dwindled, the core members (the ones with the blue t-shirts on) decided to head over to Spin for $1 drinks. I headed home. I had different plans with my money, like, getting something to eat.

You know how you always pass those shit-hole Mexican places on the street, places were you may only see one or two guys in there, and, you only see them drinking. Those kinds of places are where you find some of the best food. I had an awesome burrito last night. The quesadilla was questionable at best; all they did was warm up the tortilla on the grill, and, nuke it till the cheese melted....something I will pass on next time. But the burrito was awesome; it was made the good old fashioned way. It had lettuce, tomato, sour cream, small chunks of potatoes and seasoned beef. Filling and greasy and great. I didn't even have to be drunk to appreciate it.

I then took my leftovers and headed home. I got to the end of the yellow line, and, decided to walk home, since I hadn't seen a bus for almost 10 minutes. It was a nice walk, with the momentary exception of some punk-ass who was following me. I was about two blocks away from the train station (a quick sprint for me) when I heard some shit snapping behind me, like the sound of twigs or small tree branches. I listened a little more closely, and, began to hear footsteps. I tunred right around to look behind me to see a figure dash into a side street, trying to hide in the night. 'Nice try, ass wipe' I thought to myself.

I kept a close ear after that, and, once I hit a main street with lots of traffic, I eased up my guard a bit, since people were around, and, it was better lit.

Wouldn't you know it, about 6 minutes away from my house, a fuckin bus drives by. 6 MINUTES!!!!

Doesn't it always seem to work out like that?

Overall, a great day, and, a good time was had. I'm still celebrating the defeat of the FMA. But now the House is starting up their shit. During an election year.

Bush is a glutton for punishment, isn't he?

 

The latest news on the FMA front is that the vote may never happen.

Apparently, the Republicans pushed for a vote on the full language of the bill, instead of allowing for changes or a rewriting of the bill and, the Democrats let it happen.

Not only that, but, now both Democrats and moderate Republicans will most likely vote against "cloture" (a restriction on the amount of time that a bill can be debated over), and that alone will kill the bill.

Why did I include moderate Republicans? Word is that they are the ones losing vital fundraising dollars because of their support for the FMA. Oh, how shocking. You think they have gay kids too?

If the vote against cloture goes through, these guys could be debating it for the rest of their careers. Awww, how sad for you pathetic religious radicals.

Check it out.

In other news, I have just gotten back from the umpteenth visit to the dermatologist. And I just got back from dropping $40 for a tube of steriod cream. $60, and not even a kiss. I totally feel robbed.

The food in the hospital cafeteria was actually good. I was suprised. For $5, I got a coke, ribs, cornbread and beans. It was all good.

Later gators.

Okay, it's 10pm, and, I am exhausted. I just put in my 5000 BTU AC. Yes, I finally caved in. It's this fuckin humidity. I can't stand it.

I'm going to take a shower, and, run out to get a late dinner, since I don't have to be up until 8 tomorrow morning.

And there will definitely be updates on the whole FMA fiasco.

The emails are flying fast and furious from Equal Marriage NOW! I've received 10 in just the last 30 minutes, so, it looks like my pc will be staying on the rest of the night, with me hopping on and offline throughout.
It looks like the FMA vote will take place on Wednesday. I'll be at work and with the dish setup in our breakroom, I'll be able to watch.
I hope to be in front of Roscoe's that night celebrating the loss of the bill. My fingers and toes are crossed.

Is this how desperate our President is getting?

Ol' Georgie is up to his tricks again. It looks like he's even going to try to postpone the November election. Even though there is no ruling section of our govenment that can stop an election from happening.

If you read the story, the newly formed Election Assistance Committee, whose head was appointed by none other than Mr. Bush himself, is trying to get some legislation made and passed so that he can have the ability to stop an election "if necessary".

I'm sure that "if necessary" will include the President's creation of a made up attack threat or early projections that don't favor Bush for re-election. Oh, did I just write that?

Although a threat of attack may be legitimate, let's take a look at our record so far;

There have been at least 20 different threats (or perceived threats) of attack on the U.S. that I know of; several have been legit and stopped, most have been false.

I just don't get it.

I understand why Al Quaeda would want to sabotage the elections; Bush would be in office, and, they would have all the reason in the world to keep attacking us. But, if someone else were in office, the world would once again warm up to the U.S., then creating a sympathy for us in the world community. This new found sympathy would end up creating alliances that could mean the end of Al Quaeda, or at least, they would have to go into hiding and wait for another opportunity to strike us again.

In the spirit of patriotism, isn't it about fucking time we got up off our asses and stopped being afraid. Isn't the American spirit about our ability to keep going no matter what happens? What are we truly afraid of? Or, better yet, what is our President afraid of?

I'll tell you what he is afraid of; not being re-elected.

Plain and simple.

It's a damn shame he'd take us all down with him.

Between my links and my blogroll you'll see something new, a list of busts from Perverted Justice.

The reason why it's there is simple; I was molested when I was a child. Anybody that is doing something about stopping children from being preyed on the net is a hero in my eyes.

Yes, it may be considered vigiliantism, but, I don't want another child to go through what I went through, and still go through today. It only happened to me once, and, it has affected me for the rest of my life.

On a good note, Mary has accepted my invitation to dinner. I sent her the email yesterday. Naturally, there was the whole "Is she gonna say yes or no?" dilemma, coupled with anxiety. I had a hard time sleeping last night because of it (that is normal).

We are at the stage of trying to work out a time and day. All I have to say is.....

SHE SAID "YES"!!!!!!!SHE SAID "YES"!!!!!!!SHE SAID "YES" !!!!!!!

In other news:

I don't know whether to laugh or cry

Something we all can agree on

Can I have this at my job?

and lastly;

Watch out, it's a kangaroo and it's pissed off!

Someone once asked me why they stopped making Recess (the Disney cartoon). I told them because the kids reached the 5th grade. The woman looked at me all weird, so, I had to explain. They teach sex ed in the 5th grade. She made an "ohh" sound then shook her head in understanding.

Yeah, I know, that came out of nowhere.

So, my mom walks through the door at 10pm last night, saying that her bf was coming to pick her up. Shocking. Just for the sake of curiosity, I ask her how long she's going to be gone. "I don't know" she says while packing a suitcase with enough clothes for a week. At least. And who knows what she has at his place.

Her routine is making me sick. The constant start of fights with him, then letting him come and get her, or, having me drive her up there so that I can have the car for the weekend. It's getting old. Fast.

Other than hog tying her and taking her to a shrink, I don't know what to do. I'm locked in a lease until next May, so, my options are limited.

It's just getting old.

Something that I have been thinking about over the past month or so is I.Q. What does an I.Q. test, well, test. With all the ones I've done, my I.Q. score has generally ended up somewhere between 120 and 130. It would be higher if it weren't for one thing; word problems.

I cannot do a word problem to save my life. If somebody held a gun to my head and said that the world as we know it depends on whether I solve a word problem or not, I just simply say to pull the trigger and tell everybody to kiss their own ass goodbye.

As a result, I've come up with what I think are the three main components of an I.Q. test; comprehension, retention and application (or adaptation). Comprehension being the learning and understanding of a skill, retention being the ability to remember and reperform if necessary a skill, and, application, the ability to use said skill to solve a problem, and to adapt it for use to solve a new problem.

I don't know where this came from, but, please feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.

Well, I was planning on resurrecting the Friday Five here at my blog, but, when I went to the site, I discovered that it had been defunct since May 6th. Oh well.

So, I shall give you this instead;

So, you really are chicken

and this

Honey, have you seen my keys?

My mom informed me that her bf hadn't called her in two days (he was with his parents in Carrier Mills). So, she decides on one of her power trips to tell me not to tell her bf where she is if he calls looking for her. WTF?

My mom is fifty years old. Sounds like she's in high school, right? Then she wonders why I don't want to talk to her anymore. Gee, let's see.

I was chatting with my friend D last night, and, she suggested that I ask Mary out. I'm not sure if I want to jump that far, putting the buggy in front of the horse. Not because I'm afraid, but, simply because I don't have a car. I use my mom's car on the weekends, and, Mary lives over an hour away. It wouldn't be fair for me to ask her to drive out here every weekend. It wouldn't be fair for me to use my mom's car every weekend to drive out there either, but, because of me, my mom has a car that still works. Eh, she owes me.

That's all for now. I have mucho laundry to do, and, I've been up for only an hour and a half. I just remembered I also have a very important phone call to make, so, I'll be back later.

My neighbor is an idiot. Or, she's dating an idiot. One or the other.

I noticed that her back door was open for the past several days. That's right, days. She's in Paris with her family right now, and, her back door's been cracked open wide enough to see inside.

I walked in after calling out "Hello" at least six times. It was weird hearing one of the cats call back. Yep, one of the cats would mimic a "hello" after each one I called. Way too cute, but, weird. And I only saw one of them. There are two or three that I know of. Yipes!

So, I ran back upstairs, typed up a letter to let her know I was there, and, that her front and back doors were unlocked. I then went back into the place, and, locked the back door, then locked the front door as I closed it.

Sheesh. La estupida neighbor.

The cat was really cute, though. And I didn't sneeze. Interesting.

Even more interesting is that "thing" I mentioned earlier. It's getting more, well, warm and fuzzy. My toes are crossed. The fingers would be too obvious.

Seacrest Out!

Whoopsie!

The first thing that came to mind was the "Dewey Beats Truman" headliner of the 1948 Trib. Too funny.

This is just disgusting and disgusting at the same time.

Disposable Underwear

Are we that lazy of a society that we can't even wash our fucking underwear? For hiking or those who are prone to accidents, I can understand. But when I hear about it on the news....WTF?!?!?!

Could you imagine being the guy (or gal) that has to pick up that garbage? Hey, here's a better idea; why don't you take that money your lazy ass is gonna spend on that crap and give it to your local shelter? Donate it to a battered women's center? Create a fund to buy instruments for your local public school? Buy books and food for the homeless?

Or better still, donate the money to the Red Cross to help with the big, huge, monstrous atrocities happening in Sudan as I write this.

There are better things to do with that money than buy another reason to be lazy.

There, I let off some steam.

Aries

Your sign is that of energetic Aries, the first sign of the zodiac, the sign that is associated with Spring, and the symbol of rebirth and all beginnings.

Mars, the planet of action, is the ruler of your sign, and provides you with an extra portion of activity, assertiveness, and willpower. This makes you the fighter and the pioneer of the zodiac, who faces challenges with courage and bravery. If you do something you do it with passion and determination! If something bores you, you quickly move on to more interesting things.

You are the first of the three fire signs, an ambitious and charismatic individual, cheerful and enthusiastic in your undertakings. Others see you as outgoing and self-confident, and like to be around you.

As an Aries, you rule the first house, the section in the chart wheel that describes the outward behavior of a person, the disposition, appearance, manners, and the sense of self.

You are a cardinal sign, which means that you don't wait around until others take action. In other words, you initiate action immediately, forcefully, and directly.

Your strengths lie in your qualities as a leader; you inspire and motivate others with your enthusiasm, honesty, and straightforwardness. Since you are competitive, you need challenges like others need air to breathe. You are known for pushing any obstacles out of the way, and trust your instinctive nature. Your independence and power allow you to achieve your goals easily.

However, you have your share of weaknesses, too; for example, you can be impatient, and run the risk of acting too impulsively. At times, you can be self-centered, and tend to overlook that others might have a different point of view. When they do, you can become stubborn and intolerant. Also, since you are slightly unorganized and unsettled, you are capable of driving others crazy.

Mmmmmm, I'm so sexy too!

Not really.

Anybody who knows me well enough knows that I love to eat barbecue. I am always at somebody's house eating it, or, grilling myself. I grill something almost every weekend.

Today, however, I had to back out of a barbecue.

My throat is killing me, I'm running a bit of a fever, and, I'm tired as hell. The past several nights have been difficult to sleep through because of all the monkeys setting off fireworks around my house. The Skokie police never caught the S.O.B.s setting off the M-80's. I could have sworn somebody had something even more powerful than that.

Work was a killer too. It's the 5th of July, kids are on vacation, most parents are off of work, and, what do these people do? They come to my job, and, just pile on me. It was me and one other guy, that was it. My manager butchered the schedule last week to cut labor. Gee, dumbfuck, ever think that maybe the reason why we are having a hard time making revenue is because there aren't enough of us? I know this is a novel concept for Best Bitch, but, c'mon.

My throat is beginning to feel better, and, I won't have to travel to Waukegan to pick up my mom. Her bf is going to drive her back here. I can rest.

Well, now that I've vented, it's time for me to make some tea, and, settle down for a bit.

Hopefully, I'll have better things to say tomorrow. And be able to talk.

Today I had my session with my therapist. I see her every two weeks now, as I no longer have a car #1, and, #2, I just don't think that I need to see her every week. When I started going to see her back in September, I needed that, very badly. Now, every couple of weeks is fine.

Whenever I go to see her, I always end up with this void inside at the end of the day. It's an emptiness that used to bug me, simply because I was removing icky black sludge-like stuff from inside. The wound it created has closed over time, and, it's getting easier to get rid of what's left, simply because there is less of it.

What I haven't figured out yet whether I should let the hole close completely. I'm not even sure if the hole is a bad thing. There lies within me a part that longs to be loved and in love again, the kind of love that only a partner can give. I guess that I just found that part. Maybe the reason why the hole was bad was because it had bad stuff in it. Maybe now, it's time to fill it with the good stuff.

I know that I am learning to look for the good stuff, even in bad times. I don't hold any of the bad stuff that happened towards the end of my relationship with my ex. The memories I have of that are the good ones, the ones that have helped me and made me change as a person, and, as a woman.

I know that I am ready. I am ready to make friends and find a lover. I just need to start.

Will somebody please come kick me in my ass?

This rain is driving me fuckin' insane!!!! The weather's too bad for driving, and, it's been raining too hard to go out for a walk. I have had something to compensate for it though; I've had some fun watching the Skokie cops chase after the little punk asses who have been setting off M-80's around the block.

Then the lovely village of Skokie will be holding it's annual 4th of July parade tomorrow. Awww, cute huh? NOT REALLY. Three blocks in every direction around my house will be blocked off until 3pm. Guess what? I get off of work at noon. NOON!!!! I begged my sup to let me stay until 2, so that I won't have to wait too long to get back to my house.

If worse comes to worse, I'll just stay at work watching Direct TV. Over 700+ channels free to Best Bitch employees in their stores' hubs. Gotta love it. Now, if I could only get it in my apartment........

My brother Jr's new girlfriend, kick-ass!

Literally. He needs someone who can kick him in the ass, and, that's exactly what she does.

She's very cool. It was like they had been dating for years, but, they have only been together a month. Wow.

The concert at Petrillo was awesome. Melissa performed for two hours, not one like everybody had expected. A good time was had all around, and, despite the huge crowd at the Taste, it was a great time.

However, I met, well, more like met again, a woman that I first saw around the time I first started dating my ex. I'll call her N. N made it a point to introduce herself to me both times. I don't like N. N is a big fucking pothead. So big, she was stoned both times I met her, and, had been stoned all day yesterday (as I was told).

Now, don't get me wrong; I'm all for doing your thing so long as the only person that gets hurt is your dumb ass. I don't have a problem with pot smokers. I do have a problem with pot smokers that think I'm interested in them. Generally, habitual smokers like herself are very unattractive. In the sense that they're grossly insecure and immature, their shit isn't anywhere near being together, and, they frequently space out (anybody who knows me well knows I can not stand people who space out; I wanna bitch slap them into next week).

Now, I don't think that I'm such hot shit that tokers should drop their habit just for the pleasure of fucking me, but, they're not my kind of people. I've done pot. It's not worth it. (I'll explain more later)

Okay, my self righteous hypocritical ass is dong bitching now. I'm going to sleep.

And if anybody who reads this blog won the almost $300M Mega Million Jackpot, spare some bitch! I only need $50K. I'll even pay the taxes on it!

I'm Rick James, Bitch!!!!